adam.

So, it's weird how things synch up to help you (or hurt you, obviously) along.

Adam and I being as close as we are is hard for me sometimes, because I'm trying to keep in mind that I can't ever take it further than this. And often, especially when he's depressed, he talks about how he doesn't feel good enough for anyone. That's hard for me to hear, and reassuring him can be harder, because I end up telling him about how worthwhile he is, and that makes me want him more. Ha. Bittersweet.

But in the last week or so, Adam has been talking to me less. Things are going better with his on again-off again girlfriend, and whenever things are on the up, he tends to pay less attention to me. I'm a little sad by it, but it came at an opportune time. I need to get away from the situation for awhile, and out of my head. This is definitely providing that break.

I'm ending my week thankful. Tonight I'm going to hang out with my friends.. one of which I'm developing a budding interest in. Crushes always help distract me ;)